PARKLAND, Fla. — On Monday, the State Attorney's Office released a 217-page transcript of Nikolas Cruz's conversation with a Broward Sheriff's Office detective hours after he was arrested on Feb. 14 for opening fire at Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School killing 17 people.
The interview was conducted by Detective John Curcio on February 14, at 6:09 p.m.
The detective began with a series of standard questions, such as asking Cruz his name, where he was born and how old he is.
Shortly after the interview began, the detective leaves the room to get some water. While he was alone in the interview room but still being recorded, Cruz said, "Just kill me. Just f***ing kill me. F***."
Later in the interview, Cruz admitted to detective Curcio that he was depressed, going back to when his mother was still alive.
Cruz described loneliness and solitude as reasons for his depression.
Detective Curcio: Solitude? You don’t have a lot of friends?
The detective asked Cruz why he stopped going to Marjory Stoneman Douglas, to which Cruz blamed his depression and incidents that happened at the school.
Cruz told the detective that he got suspended from the school after getting into a fight with another student over a girl. He said that he was embarrassed to go back to the school because the other student got the better of him. Cruz stated that he faced more problems with the school because he was failing his classes and not showing up to class.
Later on in the interview, Cruz talks about hearing demons.
Detective Curcio: What are the demons?
Cruz: The voices.
Detective Curcio: Tell me about them. What are the voices about?
Cruz: It's one — it's another voice, the evil side.
Detective Curcio: Okay. And how long has that voice been going on?
Detective Curcio: What does it tell you to do?
Cruz: Burn. Kill. Destroy.
Cruz went on to say that he heard the voice the night before the massacre, where it told him to hurt people. He also said that he heard the "demon" on the morning of the shooting. The detective asks what the voice told him that morning, his response was redacted in the transcript that was released.
Detective Curcio: Did the voice tell you to buy that AR-15?
The alleged school shooter told the detective that when he didn't listen to the voice, it would tell him to cut himself. Cruz described the voice as his only friend, that kept him from being alone.
Detective Curcio: I think you like the demon.
Cruz: No, I don't
Detective Curcio: Why didn't you stop it then?
Cruz: I don't like the demon. I don't like the demon. I don't like the demon. I don't like the demon.
Cruz then requested the presence of an attorney.
After the detective left the room, Cruz is heard saying, "Why didn't he kill me? Why didn't he kill me? Why didn't he kill me? Why didn't he kill me? Why didn't he kill me?"
When he is left alone again later, he is heard saying, "I don't understand. I just want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I just want to die now. I just want to die now."